There\u2019s a place today where I go
\n the still water tears
\n funhouse mirror reflect
\n over where I was once<\/p>\n
They all looked up to me
\n at least it seemed that way
\nIn a small, turgid pond
\n seeds lay in silt since
\n maybe they\u2019ve been there all along<\/p>\n
How far back would I have to travel
\nto find the stitch where it first unraveled:<\/p>\n
I think it was 2007
\n when the fear came true
\n I was forced to chose \u2014
\n grow beyond it
\n or stumble on forever haunted<\/p>\n
Or maybe it was \u201903 that broke me
\n deep inside
\n I was unprepared
\n for the fire in their stares<\/p>\n
How far back the mirror crack runs
\n I\u2019ve felt broken
\n Since I was forced off my block as a child<\/p>\n
Let the record state it was alone
\n Boston
\n \u201808
\n when the migraines finally took control<\/p>\n
Let the record state
\n I think I know
\n if any of it happened now
\n I could take it all in
\n and hold it
\n I\u2019ve grown stronger
\n But now it\u2019s been so long
\n the world I knew back then is gone
\n But now it\u2019s been so long
\n the mind I had back when
\n is long, long gone<\/p>\n
Meek, lamb, afraid to rattle the cage
\nafraid to try
\nburnt from too many times
\nwhen it hurt like being kept alive
\n helpless<\/p>\n
Still I move forward
\nnot because I\u2019m so damn strong
\nI\u2019ve thought it all through
\n a thousand times
\nthere is no easy option
\n only decay
\n entropy
\nthe only law I can see when my head gets this way
\nit feels so clear
\na broken shard of mirror<\/p>\n
Still I move forward
\nbut the mountains get no closer<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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