Lysergic acid diethelylamide
\nWhen taken in sufficient dose
\nLoosens the bonds that hold things in place
\nBeginning with the things barely there
\nHeld together with hope, will, practice, anxiety and fear
\nLike narratives, life plans, good and bad, next week\u2019s geography exam
\nThe future and the past
\nThen the clouds, rolling in from the horizon
\nBlowing in, picking up speed until the house starts to come apart
\nThe floor can\u2019t stand still anymore
\nPieces move in seasick asymmetric undulations
\nThe walls become islands of texture
\nThe picture fragments into colors, shapes
\nEach field, each tree sets out on its own
\nMoving to a rhythm only the two of you can hear
\nShared secrets, whispered, hover, pop in the air
\nLanguage unravels paragraph by sentence
\nConcepts freed from meaning die and are reborn in strange mutations
\nUntil you find yourself speaking wordless language
\nStruggling to communicate unnamable dreamtime equations
\nThat sometimes, somehow they understand
\nMore and more
\nSweating in the heat of the molten lava as it slowly, slowly cools
\nAnd the newborn joy of sharing
\nAs the souvenirs you\u2019re holding slow their shifting
\nAnd stop slipping through your fingers
\nWhile now turns into minutes and hours pass
\nAnd no one can say when
\nThe world reformed again<\/p>\n
…Only my world had never fully formed to begin with
\nGrowing up, the crust never hardened into something all that solid
\nStanding in the field watching the earth breath
\nIn the distance there are green waves crashing
\nAs the soccer cleats on my pre-pubescent feet churn no dirt
\n\u201cLittenberg!!!\u201d
\nThe soccer ball hits the side of my head and careens out of bounds
\nFollowed by the obscenely loud…
\nKnock on the bathroom door
\n\u201cyou still breathing in there, kiddo~?\u201d
\nYeah, mom, I\u2019m still breathing in here
\nBreathing to the rhythm of the undulating wood
\nGrain dancing songs that speak of home
\nI could almost reach it
\nMy real home
\nMy real family still sets a place at the table
\nIn a room that smells like the worlds in the paperback books
\nWhen I hold them real close to my face
\nSo they can block out the sounds
\nI\u2019m being whispered about on the other side of the wall<\/p>\n
So you see the first time I dropped acid it wasn\u2019t a trip into outer space
\nBut a return to a neighboring state
\nA place I could see from my room if I squinted just so.
\nOnly I came back a tourist
\nI couldn\u2019t speak the language
\nAnd then it was over
\nSo each time I returned I traveled a little deeper and stayed a little longer
\nHoping that I\u2019d either gain asylum of burn out my difference
\nOne way or another I\u2019d be home.<\/p>\n
Well, I never did make it home
\nBut not for lack of trying.
\nAnd I\u2019m still in here, breathing.
\nAlong the way I sought out or stumbled upon\u2013
\nHalf-found, half-built in wishes and clay
\n\u2013A new family
\nRaised up from the ground
\nAnd it\u2019s beautiful, but it\u2019s not perfect
\nAnd sometimes out of the corner of my eye
\nI\u2019ll see it
\nA wavering place
\nAnd I want to return.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Lysergic acid diethelylamide When taken in sufficient dose Loosens the bonds that hold things in place Beginning with the things barely there Held together with hope, will, practice, anxiety and fear Like narratives, life plans, good and bad, next week\u2019s geography exam The future and the past Then the clouds, rolling in from the horizon […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-87","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/freaksoftechnology.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/87","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/freaksoftechnology.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/freaksoftechnology.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/freaksoftechnology.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/freaksoftechnology.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=87"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/freaksoftechnology.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/87\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/freaksoftechnology.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=87"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/freaksoftechnology.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=87"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/freaksoftechnology.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=87"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}